let me sleep

I am having a recurring dream.

For the first two occasions I dreamt about it, I did not bother. I thought, maybe it's just one of those images that pass your mind at sleep. Until I dreamt of it the third, fourth and fifth time.

Now, I wonder. Does this already mean something? Is my subconscious telling me something I do not know? Or is it letting a forsaken memory surface?

I am not really a believer of dream symbols, and dreams being prophetic. All I know is that one's subconscious mind surfaces during sleep. So, dreams can be manifestations of hidden thoughts, hopes or fears.

I am puzzled. Is my recurring dream still part of my subconscious? Is it a fear or a desire maybe? For one, my mind is successful in bringing it to my attention. I can't let it off my consciousness now.

Am having goosebumps.

one afternoon along taft avenue

Tapping my fingers on my hardbound, maroon covered book.

Why does it always feel that I am like that two-year old kid who has been told not to touch my marshmallow so I can get another one? (And I comply.)

Why is it excruciatingly painful to wait?

Is it because of the seemingly useless passing of time while you are stuck somewhere you feel you shouldn’t be? Or will it be less troubling not knowing where you want to be and simply sit and let things unfold before you? Isn’t the process still tiring and taxing nevertheless?

It’s that prolonged agony of getting to a destination, a thing, a dream, a person—that long lull between you and a desire.

Who ever wants to wait, in the first place?

A Jesuit priest once said that waiting is a sacrament. Thus, to my frail understanding, it is an avenue of grace. Am lost in the mystery.

application for permission to date my daughter

I read this from Lea Salonga's Multiply Blog. (Yes, I read her blog. Curse me. Judge me. I don't care!) I find this hilarious.

See, I spent my teenage years without having a dad at home. So, if I go out on dates or just with friends, at the very least, it's my Mom's seething anger that will welcome anyone who would dare ask permission. (Oh, she's changed. Naman! Ilang taon na ba ako? Hahaha!) My dad was cool as I thought and known him to be such, but I still wonder how he'd handle these kinda stuff if he was actually here. I remember mom telling me, that on one time she visited dad, how my dad cried and told her that he wants to go home when he read my letter where I told him that I have a suitor at 13. Hahaha! Hilarious, but I loved it.

Anyway, here goes Lea's entry:

I saw this on a friend's blog... I thought to post it here this early, many years before my own daughter begins dating.

And just so you know... I'm great with a gun.
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NOTE: This application will be incomplete and rejected unless accompanied by a complete financial statement, job history, lineage, and current medical report from your doctor.

NAME ____________________________DATE OF BIRTH ____________

HEIGHT ________ WEIGHT _________ IQ _________GPA _________

SOCIAL SECURITY #______________ DRIVERS LICENSE #____________

BOY SCOUT RANK AND BADGES________________________________________

HOME ADDRESS_____________________________________________________
CITY/STATE ____________________________ ZIP______


Do you have parents? ___Yes ___No

Is one male and the other female? ___Yes ___No

If No, explain: ___________________________________________

Number of years they have been married _________________________________

If less than your age, explain ___________________________________________



ACCESSORIES SECTION:

A. Do you own or have access to a van? __Yes __No

B. A truck with oversized tires? __Yes __No

C. A waterbed? __Yes __No

D. A pickup with a mattress in the back? __Yes __No

E. A tattoo? __Yes __No

F. Do you have an earring, nose ring, __Yes __No

pierced tongue, pierced cheek or a belly button ring?

(IF YOU ANSWERED 'YES' TO ANY OF THE ABOVE, DISCONTINUE APPLICATION AND LEAVE PREMISES IMMEDIATELY. I SUGGEST RUNNING.)

ESSAY SECTION:

In 50 words or less, what does 'LATE' mean to you? ______________________________________________________________

In 50 words or less, what does 'DON'T TOUCH MY DAUGHTER' mean to you?______________________________________________________________

In 50 words or less, what does 'ABSTINENCE' mean to you?_____________________________________________________________

REFERENCES SECTION:

Church you attend ___________________________________________________
How often you attend ________________________________________________

When would be the best time to interview your:

father? ____________ mother? ___________ pastor? ____________


SHORT-ANSWER SECTION:

Answer by filling in the blank. Please answer freely, all answers are confidential.

A. If I were shot, the last place I would want shot would be:
_________________________________________________________________

B: If I were beaten, the last bone I would want broken is my:

__________________________________________________________________

C: A woman's place is in the: __________________________________________________________________

D: The one thing I hope this application does not ask me about is:

__________________________________________________________________

E. What do you want to do IF you grow up? __________________________________________________________________

F. When I meet a girl, the thing I always notice about her first is:

________________________________________________________________

G. What is the current going rate of a hotel room? __________________________



I SWEAR THAT ALL INFORMATION SUPPLIED ABOVE IS TRUE AND CORRECT TO THE BEST OF MY KNOWLEDGE UNDER PENALTY OF DEATH, DISMEMBERMENT, NATIVE AMERICAN ANTI TORTURE, CRUCIFIXION, ELECTROCUTION, CHINESE WATER TORTURE, RED HOT POKERS, AND HILLARY CLINTON KISS TORTURE.

__________________________________________________________________

Applicant's Signature (that means sign your name, moron!) _______________________________ ___________________________

Mother's Signature Father's Signature _______________________________ ________________________________

Pastor/Priest/ Rabbi State Representative/Congressman



Thank you for your interest, and it had better be genuine and non-sexual. Please allow four to six years for processing.You will be contacted in writing if you are approved. Please do not try to call or write (since you probably can't, and it would cause you injury). If your application is rejected, you will be notified by two gentlemen wearing white ties carrying violin cases (you might want to watch your back) .



To prepare yourself, start studying Daddy's Rules for Dating.


Daddy's Rules for Dating

Your dad's rules for your boyfriend (or for you if you're a guy):

Rule One: If you pull into my driveway and honk you'd better be delivering a package, because you're surely not picking anything up.

Rule Two: You do not touch my daughter in front of me. You may glance at her, so long as you do not peer at anything below her neck. If you cannot keep your eyes or hands off of my daughter's body, I will remove them.

Rule Three: I am aware that it is considered fashionable for boys of your age to wear their trousers so loosely that they appear to be falling off their hips. Please don't take this as an insult, but you and all of your friends are complete idiots. Still, I want to be fair and open minded about this issue, so I propose this compromise: You may come to the door with your underwear showing and your pants ten sizes too big, and I will not object. However, in order to ensure that your clothes do not, in fact come off during the course of your date with my daughter, I will take my electric nail gun and fasten your trousers securely in place to your waist.

Rule Four: I'm sure you've been told that in today's world, sex without utilizing a 'Barrier method' of some kind can kill you. Let me elaborate, when it comes to sex, I am the barrier, and I will kill you.

Rule Five: It is usually understood that in order for us to get to know each other, we should talk about sports, politics, and other issues of the day. Please do not do this. The only information I require from you is an indication of when you expect to have my daughter safely back at my house, and the only word I need from you on this subject is: 'early.'

Rule Six: I have no doubt you are a popular fellow, with many opportunities to date other girls. This is fine with me as long as it is okay with my daughter. Otherwise, once you have gone out with my little girl, you will continue to date no one but her until she is finished with you. If you make her cry, I will make you cry.

Rule Seven: As you stand in my front hallway, waiting for my daughter to appear, and more than an hour goes by, do not sigh and fidget. If you want to be on time for the movie, you should not be dating. My daughter is putting on her makeup, a process than can take longer than painting the Golden Gate Bridge. Instead of just standing there, why don't you do something useful, like changing the oil in my car?

Rule Eight: The following places are not appropriate for a date with my daughter: Places where there are beds, sofas, or anything softer than a wooden stool. Places where there is darkness. Places where there is dancing or holding hands. Places where the ambient temperature is warm enough to induce my daughter to wear shorts, tank tops, midriff T-shirts, or anything other than overalls, a sweater, and a goose down parka - zipped up to her throat. Movies with a strong romantic or sexual themes are to be avoided; movies that feature chain saws are okay. Hockey games are okay. Old folks homes are better.

Rule Nine: Do not lie to me. I may appear to be a potbellied, balding, middle-aged, dimwitted has-been. But on issues relating to my daughter, I am the all-knowing, merciless god of your universe. If I ask you where you are going and with whom, you have one chance to tell me the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth. I have a shotgun, a shovel, and five acres behind the house. Do not trifle with me.

Rule Ten: Be afraid. Be very afraid. It takes very little for me to mistake the sound of your car in the driveway for a chopper coming in over a rice paddy near Hanoi. When my Agent Orange starts acting up, the voices in my head frequently tell me to clean the guns as I wait for you to bring my daughter home. As soon as you pull into the driveway you should exit the car with both hands in plain sight. Speak the perimeter password, announce in a clear voice that you have brought my daughter home safely and early, then return to your car - there is no need for you to come inside. The camouflaged face at the window is mine.