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My cute little Joshua

With pretty Therese

It was nice playing with you guys. I really had fun for those two mornings we spent laughing and exchanging stories. By this time, you must be in San Diego already.
I'll see you again, kids. Be good and always take care. ü

a bit grown

If I have learned to love, don't ask why. I too do not understand. My mind is weary of figuring things out. And I have succumbed to let it rest. Whether this is right or am committing a mistake, I do not care. What matters is am at peace with myself. I have known. I am glad I've known. I'm still fierce. Not so afraid anymore.

Loving as I have finally grasped is not about who and why, or how.

Or maybe it is still a choice. I chose to accept that I felt.

I am happy. I felt I've grown. I think, I have.

juego de anillo

Dear Pa,

Em and I were looking for some photos for display earlier when I found these old photos. These were taken during the Family Day when I was in Prep. We had our field demonstration which I hated then because of the heat. But I was happy to have you and Mom there present to watch me perform. Moreso, I get to join most of the games that time because I had both a mom and a dad to play with.

I remember how much I wanted to join "Juego de Anillo" that morning. It was a game exclusively for kids and dads. I didn't even know what the rules of this game were, but it sounded very peculiar to me, so I thought it might be interesting. I think you knew that I wanted to play this one, because even before I asked, you already invited me to join. I remember you saying, "Tara, Pache, sali tayo!". You were very giddy, much more than I was. I loved you more for that. You were the bestest Papa then (and you still are). I wasn't sure what was it that you saw that you seemed to be sure I wanted to play. Was it a certain look? Did you read my body language? Or is there really a language only fathers and daughters understand? I don't know. But I was thankful you asked.

As you placed me on your shoulders, I was getting more excited. (Now, I am sure that I tend to hide my emotions. I remember I was also very giddy then, but I refused to show. Hahaha!) I could hear you shouting out our strategy on how we're gonna get the ring with the unsharpened pencil in the hand. Initially, when the rules were said my excited diminished and slowly I had doubts on whether I can string the ring. I was afraid I might not perform what I was supposed to do. I was worried I might disappoint you. But in the middle of the noise all around us, I heard you say "Kaya mo yan, Pache! Kaya naten to! Focus ka lang sa ring." Then I was so sure we are gonna win. "Sabi mo, Pa e!"

When I heard the cue to start, you started running towards the ring. I was in fighting form. I did everything just as you told me. Most importantly, I did not lose sight of our goal. You performed your part well (the running) and I knew that I have to do mine well too. I told myself, "We have to win. i cannot disappoint Papa."

And we did!

We did it and I was so happy!. Look at my Kodak moment shot! Ninong Noel did a good one on this. Look at how proud I was. I knew I did well, but I was even more proud because that time I felt I was the only kid whose Papa was intensely into the game as I am. We were a team then, and I knew you also wanted to win because it's gonna make me happy. I felt everyone else was starting when we shouted that we won! I was enjoying the stares then, because they are staring at me while am on my Papa's shoulders. He made me win. He did this more than I.

Thanks so much for that glorious moment. These pictures reminded me of how much you have supported me in the things I have wanted. I've always knew that my heart sends you signals that helps me tell you its secret wishes. And you never failed me. O yes, there are times you also have disappointed me by not acceding to my whims, but in the end I always get the best I can possibly have. Thank you for showing me immeasurable love. You are the greatest!ü

I miss you.

Hugs,

Faith

There is a welling emotion in my chest. It's a familiar feeling but I do not want to name it. It feels like fear mixed with terror.

Oh, yes. I am terrified.

I do not want to let go of my sunny and bright attitude. But every time, I touch the core of me, I freak out!

Am scared. So scared.

Maybe it's just a ghost I have created. Or maybe it is a ghost of the past. I do not know. Still I am scared.

breathe

2 AM and she calls me 'cause I'm still awake,
"Can you help me unravel my latest mistake?,
I don't love him. Winter just wasn't my season"
Yeah we walk through the doors, so accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to criticize,
Hypocrites. You're all here for the very same reason

'Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button, girl.
So cradle your head in your hands
And breathe... just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe

May he turn 21 on the base at Fort Bliss
"Just a day" he said down to the flask in his fist,
"Ain't been sober, since maybe October of last year."
Here in town you can tell he's been down for a while,
But, my God, it's so beautiful when the boy smiles,
Wanna hold him. Maybe I'll just sing about it.

Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table.
No one can find the rewind button, boys,
So cradle your head in your hands,
And breathe... just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe

There's a light at each end of this tunnel,
You shout 'cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
And these mistakes you've made, you'll just make them again
If you only try turning around.

2 AM and I'm still awake, writing a song
If I get it all down on paper, it's no longer inside of me,
Threatening the life it belongs to
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
And I know that you'll use them, however you want to

But you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand.
and breathe, just breathe
woah breathe, just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe.

irony

If life is made up of changing seasons, why do we work for permanence?

de-stressed

Sembreak is ticking out. Soon, I will be romancing with law books all over again. My four-week break (I didn't realize it was that long) was sooo good. I was able get lots of sleep and good food (oh, i did earned some pounds, hay) . I met up with old friends. I was able to finish Grey's Anatomy Season 3 (I love Preston Burke and I see myself in Cristina Yang.) I also started with House (that is, literally started: Episode 1.) I've read a lot of non-law books. And I also went to... BICOL.

Mayon Volcano at 10am on our way to Tabaco, Albay.
The view was better at 6 am, no clouds then.
But the view from the hotel isn't very good for photo taking.

This Bicol trip is supposed to be a business trip but at the same time I took the opportunity to commune with nature. The trip was tiringly long. Ten hours by land. I've slept all that I can sleep. I even tried reading on a moving vehicle (which I know isn't right or I'll continue ruining my eyes.) But I loved the stillness of the greens we are passing by on the road. Nothing like the city that I have grown accustomed with. I needed a breather and thank God I had it.

I've been to several places in the Bicolandia--Daet (in Camarines Norte) , Naga and Pili (in Camarines Sur), Legaspi, Daraga and Tabako (in Albay). For the first time, I have seen the magnificent Mayon Volcano. As the locals would say, if you have seen it's glory without any clouds covering it at least at the moment you came, the volcano is welcoming you to the place. I am welcomed.ü The food was excellent! We had our servings of Lato (seaweeds), Bicol Express, and Pangat (Laing).

Stress, I have learned is a word that is originally used in engineering. It pertains to the maximum weight that a steel can take. And now we use that to describe the pressures of human beings. I have realized that city life stressed me much and good thing my Bicol experience softened me a bit. This sembreak de-stressed me. And it is good. Very good. I had my good friends with me in the Bicol trip too, which spiced the whole thing. Plus the extra money on our pockets.ü

Juris, Faith and Dee as we arrived in Naga City.

Am ready for another sem closer to the bar.

season three

Finally, I have finished Grey's Anatomy Season 3. I wasn't a series freak, nor was I very interested in this series even if my friends have gone gaga over it when it started. But for some reason, I got hooked to it. At the start it was only because of the dialogues. I liked the insights of the scriptwriter. Eventually, as I get to know the characters bit by bit, I get more interested to know them and associate my self to their experiences.

I admired Preston Burke's mystery from the very start. He was a very good cardio-thoracic surgeon. Brilliant even. I also loved Cristina Yang, a surgical intern. Although at the start, I didn't like her rigidity and inhumane, voracious character. But I realized I loved her being ambitious and a go-getter. She knows what she wants and she knows how to get it. She works hard and she is focused. She isn't like any other woman who spends time day dreaming and whining. She doesn't even seem to have a sweet bone inside of her. But she later learned how to protect her man, when Burke needed keep a secret about his profession. That may be a down side, but later I realized I see much of myself in her. Yang knew how to compromise and sacrifice too.

Meredith and Derek's love story brought me to being nauseous. While Burke and Yang's interested me a lot. It is brutal. Harsh, even. No mush. But very intense. Sandra Oh, the Hollywood actress playing Yang's character, said in an interview in Oprah that Yang did love Burke so much. Sadly, it didn't ended like I wanted it to. O well... Too much for fairy tales. Grey's isn't a fairy tale after all.

brightening up

I have changed the color of my blog to yellow. Bright.ü

I like it.

Umn. I feel nauseous about my recent posts. Too much love. Hehe.

love captured

These are some of the photos on exhibit in a Photo Congress last Tuesday. Dee, Juris and I took shots of some of our favorites. Here are mine. Sorry we forgot to take note of the photographers.

I like the silhouette effect plus the sunset on background. Very playful.

This one is very cultural. Very Filipino.

On top of the list simply because of its personal meaning. Profound.

This one is melodramatic.

The fireworks got me. I love fireworks.

Emotional.

Very creative. Plus I like the waves kissing the seashore concept.

more on kids' pov

HOW DO PEOPLE IN LOVE TYPICALLY BEHAVE?

"When a person gets kissed for the first time, they fall down and theydon't get up for at least an hour." Wendy, age 8

"Mooshy...like puppy dogs...except puppy dogs don't wag their tailsnearly as much." Arnold, age 10

"All of a sudden, the people get movies fever so they can sit togetherin the dark." Shem, age 8



CONCERNING WHY LOVE HAPPENS BETWEEN TWO PARTICULAR PEOPLE

"One of the people has freckles and so he finds somebody else who hasfreckles too." Andrew, age 6

"No one is sure why it happens, but I heard it has something to do withhow you smell...that's why perfume and deodorant is so popular." Mae,age 9

"I think you're supposed to get shot with an arrow or something, but therest of it isn't supposed to be painful." Manuel, age 8



ON WHAT FALLING IN LOVE IS LIKE

"Like an avalanche where you have to run for your life." John, age 9

"If falling in love is anything like learning to spell, I don't want to do it. It takes too long." Glenn, age 7



ON THE ROLE OF BEAUTY AND HANDSOMENESS IN LOVE

"If you want to be loved by somebody who isn't already in your family,it doesn't hurt to be beautiful." Anita, age 8

"It isn't always just how you look. Look at me, I'm handsome asanything and I haven't got anybody to marry me yet." Brian, age 7

"Beauty is skin deep. But how rich you are can last a lifetime."Christine, age 9



REFLECTIONS ON THE NATURE OF LOVE

"Love is the most important thing in the world, but baseball is prettygood too." Greg, age 8



CONCERNING WHY LOVERS OFTEN HOLD HANDS

"They want to make sure their rings don't fall off because they paid good money for them." Gavin, age 8

"They are just practicing for when they might have to walk down the aisle someday and do the holy matchimony thing." John, age 9



CONFIDENTIAL OPINIONS ABOUT LOVE

"I'm in favor of love as long as it doesn't happen when 'Dinosaurs' ison television." Jill, age 6

"Love is foolish.....but I might try it sometime." Floyd, age 9

"Yesterday I kissed a girl in a private place...we were behind a tree."Carey, age 7

"Love will find you. Even if you hide from it. I have been trying tohide from it since I was five, but the girls keep finding me." Dave,age 8

"I'm not rushing into being in love. I'm finding the fourth grade hard enough." Regina, age 10



THE PERSONAL QUALITIES YOU NEED TO HAVE IN ORDER TO BE A GOOD LOVER

"Sensitivity don't hurt." Robbie, age 8

"One of you should know how to write a check. Because even if you havetons of love, there is still going to be a lot of bills." Ava, age 8



SOME SUREFIRE WAYS TO MAKE A PERSON FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU

"Tell them that you own a whole bunch of candy stores." Del, age 6

"Shake your hips and hope for the best." Camille, age 9

"Yell out that you love them at the top of your lungs...and don't worryif their parents are right there." Manuel, age 8

"Don't do things like have smelly, green sneakers. You might getattention, but attention ain't the same thing as love." Alonzo, age 9

"One way is to take the girl out to eat. Make sure it's something shelikes to eat. French fries usually works for me." Bart, age 9



HOW CAN YOU TELL IF ADULTS EATING DINNER IN A RESTAURANT ARE IN LOVE?

"Just see if the man picks up the check. That's how you can tell if heis in love." Bobby, age 9"

Lovers will just be staring at each other and their food will getcold...other people care more about their food." Bart, age 9

"Romantic adults are usually all dressed up, so if they are just wearingjeans it might mean they used to go out or they just broke up." Sarah,age 9

"See if the man has lipstick on his face." Sandra, age 7

"It's love if they order one of those desserts that's on fire. They like to order those because it's just like how their hearts are---onfire." Christine, age 9



WHAT MOST PEOPLE ARE THINKING WHEN THEY SAY "I LOVE YOU"

"The person is thinking: Yeah, I really love him. But I hope heshowers at least once a day." Michelle, age 9

"Some lovers might be real nervous, so they are glad that they finallygot it out and said it and now they can eat." Dick, age 7



HOW WAS KISSING INVENTED?

"I know one reason that kissing was created. It makes you feel warm allover, and they don't always have electric heat or fireplaces or evenstoves in their houses." Gina, age 8



HOW A PERSON LEARNS TO KISS

"You can have a big rehearsal with your Barbie and Ken dolls." Julia,age 7

"You learn it right on the spot when your gooshy feelings get the bestof you." Brian, age 7

"It might help to watch soap operas all day." Carin, age 9



WHEN IS IT OKAY TO KISS SOMEONE?

"When they're rich." Pam, age 7

"It's never okay to kiss a boy. They always slobber all overyou....that's why I stopped doing it." Tammy, age 7

"If it's your mother, you can kiss her anytime. But if it's a newperson, you have to ask permission." Roger, age 8

"I look at kissing like this: Kissing is fine if you like it, but it'sa free country and nobody should be forced to do it." Michael, age 8



HOW TO MAKE LOVE ENDURE

"Spend most of your time loving instead of going to work." Dick, age 7

"Don't forget your wife's name..that will mess up the love." Erin, age 8

"Be a good kisser. It might make your wife forget that you never takeout the trash." Dave, age 8

"Don't say you love somebody and then change your mind....Love isn'tlike picking which movies you watch." Natalie, age 9

warm and fuzzy

I woke up with a funny feeling. That familiar feeling.

I smiled.

As I was travelling to a meeting place for a project, the rain started to pour. It was cool, but the my heart felt warm and fuzzy. I'd like to dismiss myself, but eventually I just let myself be.

I talked to my God, telling Him every detail of the what's going on with my head, heart and just everything that surrounds me as I perceive them.I told Him to take charge. It felt nice. I thanked Him too. I felt blessed being gifted with people who makes my heart smile. I prayed I'd serve my purpose in other people's lives.

mushyness in innocence

This afternoon I received a SMS which contains a definition of love by an 8 year old. It says: "Love is when someone hurt you and you fot so mad but you didn't yell at them coz you know it would hurt their feelings too." Aww. How innocent. I remembered receiving an email which contains a lot of these...and so I searched. Read through and see how the cute rascals can be profound in their simple views of what love can be.

"Love is that first feeling you feel before all the bad stuff gets in the way."

"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love."

"When someone loves you, the way she says your name is different. You know that your name is safe in her mouth."

"God could have said magic words to make the nails fall off the cross, but He didn't. That's love."

"Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other."

"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs."

"Love is when someone hurts you. And you get so mad but you don't yell at him because you know it would hurt his feelings."

"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired."

"Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK."

"Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My mommy and daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss."

"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen."

"If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate."

"Love is hugging. Love is kissing. Love is saying no."

"When you tell someone something bad about yourself and you're scared they won't love you anymore. But then you get surprised because not only do they still love you, they love you even more."

"There are 2 kinds of love. Our love. God's love. But God makes both kinds of them."

"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday."

"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well."

"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore."

"My mommy loves me more than anybody. You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night."

"Love is when mommy gives daddy the best piece of chicken."

"Love is when mommy sees daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford."

"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day"

"When you're born and see your mommy for the first time. That's love."

"I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones."

"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget."

"I let my big sister pick on me because my Mom says she only picks on me because she loves me. So I pick on my baby sister because I love her."

"Love cards like Valentine's cards say stuff on them that we'd like to say ourselves, but we wouldn't be caught dead saying."

"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little Stars come out of you."

spinning off the sem break

Finally, another sem is over. Four more sems and I'll soon be ready for the bar. Yahoo! For now, I need this break. 2 weeks. My to-do list isn't cramped. I'd just like it to be free and light. More time for lazing around, reading non-law books, surfing the net, maybe a trip to the beach or to tagaytay or to Pangasinan to see Zeny's mom, meet some old friends, attend Berna's wedding and watch grey's (or maybe I can start watching House) and lots of movies too.

My sem break officially started yesterday and so upon waking up from a night of beer with my law school friends, I accepted a spur of the moment invite from Peds for a movie. It was a bright and sunny day yesterday, and I realized how much time I have been spending inside buildings. Oftentimes, I go home at night or at dawn if I stay out in coffee houses to study. The sunshine is a welcome. I remember telling Peds: "Ganito pala pag umaga. Ang saya." One proof that the sun rays do stimulate some hormones in the body which makes you feel gleeful.

After conversations over lunch and coffee, we saw Stardust. It's an adaptation of Neil Gaiman's book about a true love and magic. The story revolves around fallen star who who turned out to be a beautiful woman in the person of Yvaine (Claire Danes) and Tristan (Charlie Cox), a yound lad who's looking for the fallen star to please the prettiest girl from his village. They both were caught in a magical adventure to run away from all those who are after them for an array of reasons. And in the course of going through the twists and turns of death and spells, they fell for each other.

In all, the movie is a mixture of magic, romance and adventure spiced up with some risque humor. I actually felt I was warped in a fairy tale book in kinder. The pictureque fields and mountains setting is soooo soothing. I remember commenting thrice: "Ang ganda!" . The medieval village costumes of sires and maidens, to the flyng ships, pirates, castles, spells and witches did it all. Although, this time it's a little appreciation from an adult. Hehe. I had a little tickle on my romatic side (Yes, I do have that too!).

I thought as I walked out of the movie house: Yvaine shone the brightest when she found her true love. Hence, true love brings you to your nature and makes you the best of it. Cheesy.ü

desperate

The comment made by Teri Hatcher's character in Desperate Housewives about Filipino doctors stirred a thick volume of anger for most Filipinos. Some of my friends started blogging it the moment they heard it in the news, while some started strings of discussions in message boards. I too was irrated that time.

Here are the dialogues from the episode:

MD: Well, everything seems normal. But, you say you’ve been having irregular periods?

Susan: Yeah, you know, one month off, two months on. That happens, right?

MD: Have you ever experienced night sweats? …. (few other lines here)

MD: How about hot flashes?

Susan: OK, whoa. I’m gonna stop you right there. I’m way too young for that, please refer to your chart.

MD: Susan, I know for a lot of women the word menopause has negative connotations. They hear aging, brittle bones, loss of sexual desire…

Susan: Before you go any further, can I check those diplomas? I would just like to make sure that they’re not from some med school in the Philippines…

E t*nga pala siya e. Ilang taon na ba siya? Normal kaya ang mag-menopause sa babae! Desperada na nga! Tsk. tsk.

Sorry for the foul language. I don't normally allow such profanity in my blog but that woman is really getting into my nerves! (Ow, my reaction haven't changed the first time I saw the video till now.) Isn't the writer of that freaking show aware that we were taught by the Thomasites who apparently are Americans? And haven't they realized that if not because of our doctors (and nurses), they could have been dead by now or at least their population have trimmed to half? St*pid! Hmn...a Filipino character should then be placed in Grey's Anatomy from now on. Hahaha!

I like Teri Hatcher as I was growing up. I frequently watched her as Lois Lane in Lois and Clark. But I am now disgusted with her uncritical acting. Good thing I never became a fan of that desperate series. Buti nalang tlaga.

Good thing the ABC Network had already issued it's statement of apology: “The producers of Desperate Housewives and ABC Studios offer our sincere apologies for any offence caused [by the insulting remark] in the season premier. There was no intent to disparage the integrity of any aspect of the medical community in the Philippines.” However, the Malacanang is demanding that an episode would carry and apology or at least take back the slur. (Clap, clap, clap! Good job on that Sec. Bunye.)

Now, let me talk to my fellow Filipinos: I am happy that we are fighting back. At least, we are aware of our worth and dignity as a Nation. Let the blood of Lapu-lapu and Gabriela Silang run free. The foreign influence might have caused us to feel insecure of our brown skins, but remember that these Caucasians are not better off than us. Never was, is and will be. More than our bronze skin, we are made of good stuff, Pinoys! Believe that and show the world...and those desperate housewives! Remember also that it isn't all about image, if we think that we are good, let's be better and continue proving them wrong.

i've got a new stuff-y

Nina gave this cute-y stuffed toy for my birthday. (Thanks, nina! mmmwwaahhhh!) Tagal na nun noh?! Di ko kasi nakuha agad from Juris.ü

Anyway, I need help in naming this little thing. Can't think of any. Juris and I are coming up with crazy names. I don't want to give in just yet to any of those...Hahaha!

Just send me a comment, message or an email for your suggestions. Thanks.

battles fought and won

People's Champ

Manny Pacquiao won the bout against Marco Antonio Barrera all over again!

After 12 complete rounds, Manny emerged as the winner by a unanimous decision. I am not a boxing fanatic, but it is always sends chill down my spine to hear the "Lupang Hinirang" being sung atop the international boxing ring and see the Philippine flag raised in a foreign land. It would always, always make me sob inside. Simply because of pride that I am a Filipino, and whatever my country's circumstances are, I am still proud to be one.

There was some dirty play from Barrera on the 11th round, but Manny was gentleman enough not to throw some dirty tactics as well. I liked what Chino Trinidad commented to that: "Di na lumaban si Manny. Pilipino eh." Whether it is mind conditioning or simply for posterity, I would like to believe Chino. Manny knew the world is watching and he acted accordingly. May that little act of propriety remind us that we represent a Nation. We do not want to be branded as crooks or second-class, don't we? (I'll write about what Teri Hatcher's character said in Desperate Housewives about Filipino doctors next time.) I also thought that maybe, Manny would have wanted to give Barrera a graceful exit, since this is his final bout. That as a boxer he knew that Barrera deserves some dignity especially now that this is his farewell fight, even if Manny could have knocked him out. My brothers refuse to believe me, though. Haha!

I salute Manny Pacquiao. He transforms whenever he gives out his jabs and uppercuts. He is simply following his "flow". I tip my hat for the passion he's shown-- that heart for his craft and the determination not only to prove himself but also to bring honor to the country. He knew his victory isn't only his, but for the whole Philippines. Thank you for making us proud again. Thank you for showing the world that Filipinos can do something. That we too, can win.

And...I am really happy you didn't make it in Congress. You're battleground is the ring, not the legislative halls.ü

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Faith Battle

During the month of October, the Dominican Community in the Philippines, especially in Manila, celebrate the Feast of Our Lady of La Naval. (Next week the annual La Naval procession will be held around the Santo Domingo parish.) It commemorates the victory of the Filipino and Spanish soldiers in the Battle of Manila in the 1600's against the Dutch. It was believed that this victory is a miracle which happened through the aid of the intercession of Mary. The soldiers who were then praying the rosary promised to the Lady to walk barefoot from Cavite to the shrine of the Lady of the Holy Rosary in Manila. From then, this became a devotion which is now practiced for centuries.

This afternoon, I attended my Sunday Mass in UST Chapel. More than feeling that familiar home-y warmth, it also felt good to be in one of the places which actually shaped my faith. The Parish is celebrating its annual fiesta in celebration of the Feast of the Lady of the Holy Rosary. The re-appointed Rector of the University, Fr. Rolando Dela Rosa, O.P. is the main celebrant and homilist.

In his homily, Fr. Dela Rosa highlighted that battles are won not only because of one's ability, skill or intelligence to fight. It is more of the heart that drives one to conquer the obstacle set before him. It is also in recognizing that winning battles is about letting God create miracles from our limited creations. That realizing that we are "little gods"--potent and capable. It is after we have done the best that we can, that we allow His grace to meet us and bring us to heights we've never imagined.

A focused will, a fervent heart and faith in God
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UAAP town is painted green.

The La Salle Green Archers are back with a vengeance.

After a year of suspension from playing basketball in the University Athletic Association of the Philippines, the Archers capped the 70th UAAP season by bagging the Championship title against the University of the East. La Salle ran away with a 73-64 score against UE. Via television coverage, I witnessed how the La Sallista's cheered and raved for their school players. The players must have known that the school is counting on them, and supporting them with all hearts too. I have always admired their school spirit. "Animo La Salle..." as I would always hear during basketball games in my college days. De La Salle university is back..

The University of the East is a tough team to beat. After earning a 14-0 score during the eliminations, these guys have what it takes to give a good fight too. However, the De La Salle basketball team wanted to win--and they did. They know what they want, they worked for it, and they got it. Purpose, resilience and character.

I am not a La Sallista. In fact, I have seen La Salle as a persistent rival since there was a time that UST and La Salle would always meet in basketball championship way back when I was still a UAAP Basketball fan. Funny is I didn't even applied in La Salle for college because of this lame reason. Hahaha! But that is all history.

It is just also interesting to note the teams coaches are brothers--Dindo and Franz Pumaren.ü
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I have a battle to fight too... Finals na.ü

oc-oc

Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) is an illness that causes people to have unwanted thoughts (obsessions) and to repeat certain behaviors (compulsions) over and over again. We all have habits and routines in our daily lives, such as brushing our teeth before bed. However, for people with OCD, patterns of behavior get in the way of their daily lives.

Most people with OCD know that their obsessions and compulsions make no sense but they can't ignore or stop them. Common obsessions include fear of dirt or germs and worry that a task has been done poorly, even when the person knows this is not true. While common compulsions include cleaning and grooming, such as washing hands, showering or brushing teeth over and over again and ordering and arranging items in certain ways. (Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder: What It Is and How to Treat It )

I have my own kicks of obsession-compulsion which I am learning to outgrow bit by bit.

I arrange my shirts by color. I have separate purses/pouch bags for my pens (a.k.a school supplies. I have a stapler, staple wire, scissors, post it pads, highlighters, etc. in it), my kikay stuff, my coins, my contact lens paraphernalia. Check my bag. It is full of pouches and that is the reason why I carry a BIG bag all the time. My paper bills in my wallet are arranged according to denomination. And the cards and ID's are arranged according to use. My monthly bills are filed according to their kind, by date having the latest on top. They are placed in separately color coded folders with plastic fasteners with the same color.ü Whenever I study, I have to lay down my pens at a certain angle diagonal to the book am reading. (I remember Juris laughing at me whenever I do this.)

But one thing that I have noticed that I am OC about is whenever I write. I have the tendency to dwell on the details and make sure that everythings else is perfect. This will range from the the grammar to the margins (or in some cases, lay-out). I read every portion part by part, over and over. Then I edit if I see something is missing or I feel that I should have expounded on an area or i'll delete a paragraph or sentence. I make sure that what I write is sensible and almost perfect. Whenever I catch myself doing this nitty-gritty thing, I start hating myself for not being able to let go of it. It is so time consuming and I find it's less productive. Sometimes, I succeed in letting go, but oftentimes I give in. But tell you, the relief and satisfaction afterwards is incomparable!

I guess, my OC-ness is a manifestation of all the other anxieties that should be directed in the other areas of my life.

And I think that this is genetic... My mom is OC too. Suuper OC to the hilt.

what's in a name?

Kate directed me to this site where it will give you the meaning of your name. Interesting.

ma. fatima

You are both a visionary and a realist able to bring your dreams into a tangible form. Pioneering and ambitious you accept new challenges and the responsibilities which go with them willingly. Your sound judgement, resourcefulness and positive nature means that your progress in life is assured. Certainly your kindness and generosity to others and your inspirational manner attract success as well as many admirers.

pre-finals

I am sick. :C

Am down with colds. I kept on sneezing in class this afternoon and man! my nose is stuffy! Am having a slight fever too. Tsk. I hate this especially that final exams is coming next week.

Grrr... Yes, lovely body. I know you need a break. But this is early for rest. After finals...after finals.

I hope I get better.

money and happiness

Money can buy happiness.

I have found a new site titled as above which is authored by Laura Rowley. (Kindly find link from the well-spring section). To which, I reminded me of the lessons I learned about money. And yes, I have to agree with her. Money may not be the most important thing in the world, but it definitely affects all other areas of life.

In my quater-life, I am now going through a lesson learning experiences about money and how it works. Yes, I am currently unemployed in my mid twenties and tell you, it doesn't feel good asking for allowance from my parents. I miss those days when I rake in my own money, spend it to the my heart's content and later earn some more. Although, I am not completely sad since I left the corporate world to pursue my law degree, which will be a different story altogether. I am now contemplating of finding means of earning.

Vending isn't very appealing. But maybe, I have to try it too. Atleast, learn the lesson of confidence about the dignity of it. I do have to learn the discipline of saving. I did saved some money before I left my previous job, but I still have to be tighter on myself, especially now. I do have the tendecy to splurge, especially when feel stressed.

I realized it all boilds down to what you have set aside and not what you actually earn.

the sweetness of final four

http://www.krispykreme.com.ph/

Fabulous Marketing Strat.

I've seen this first in Tidoy's Blog. Very Interesting. I wonder how they taste.

During my high school and college days, I am a fan of college basketball. I even watch games live in Araneta then. Whew! The intensity of the games and thrill of watching them play is sooo exhilirating. Vying for the Final Four is really a feat for the UAAP member-schools. And what sweetness it brings to take home the gold.

Although, the obsession has faded, these donuts have definitely caught my attention and is luring me to try them. Again, VERY EFFECTIVE MARKETING STRAT.

I'll get one soon.

And of course, I'd have the yellow.

rules of engagement

Our lives are made up of rules.

Whether it is written or customarily observed; whether it is imposed by the society or the people around us or simply dictated by our personal choices; Or simply whether we like it or not;

Rules.

Oftentimes, rules make us feel trapped. They seem to limit our God given freedom since they appear to be parameters by which we are expected to act--thus we have to act accordingly. On the other hand, I would like to believe that rules are made to make life less complicated and chaotic.

Have you ever imagined life on the streets if there were no traffic rules that motorists and pedestrians follow? Our streets will be more packed than they usually are; accidents are more likely to happen which will be detrimental to both life and property. By following a set of rules, or simply abiding by the green, yellow and red colors that the traffic light shows, or by merely walking across the white stripes on the road, we can all have more safe and orderly journey. Or have you ever thought how life is if every person can just stick a knife against another person's body without any thought? Or every person will just nonchalantly take someone else's property without any reprimand for the violation of taking? Wouldn't that simply drive you haywire?

Even in an anarchical society, (which most believed to be a state of lawlessness and chaos) they have a sense of order or rule of "law" which is based on the presumption that every person has a knowledge of what is good and bad. This dictate of social conscience serves as the rule by which the State is ruled.

Rules are there to preserve order.
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On Saturday, I will have a recitation likened to a "revalida" for my Civil Procedure class. It'll cover Rules 1-71 of the Rules of Court. So, after I post this entry I will start digging my books and master my rules.

The knowledge of the Rules of Court is vital for every lawyer (and those aspiring to be one as well). Just like in any game, one must be proficient with the rules for him to play it well and win eventually.

I do hope I master my rules. Not only for Saturday's game but more like to serve it's real purpose when I become a lawyer.

an aspiring lawyer's day off

JPEPA, Lamy and Martini.

Three things all packed in a day out of school.

carlisle

"There will come a point in your life when you'll get tired of chasing everyone, trying to fix everything. It is not giving up. It's just a realization that you don't need all those you went after, because what you need are those who stood by you even if you never needed them."

17 September 2007

23:20

fireworks and fountains

two words.

keeping in touch

Many research have shown the importance of touch in the emotional health of a person. Touch is used to relieve pain, depression, and anxiety. That is why most new moms are encouraged to frequently touch their new borns. Touch is a basic necessity for human beings since this is the only means to get in touch with other human beings. Unfortunately, because of the indifference and lack of time to bond with others, we have less and less of this.

Now, there is a touching revolution--Hug Therapy.

Hugging is one of the intimate forms of touch. Most psychologists say that every person needs an average of four (4) hugs a day to survive, six (6) maintain emotional well-being, 21 for those who have emotional and mental problems (those who are neurotic).

According to Dolores Krieger, R.N., Ph.D., professor of nursing at New York University and expert in the field of touch therapy, when one person hugs or touches another, it actually invigorates the body by stimulating the level of hemoglobin which carries oxygen to tissues. When these tissues receive oxygen, they have a new energy that continues to rejuvenate the body.

Other research in the hugging field has shown that hugging helps lessen the chances of senility in people age 70+, increases liveliness, curiosity, problem-solving abilities and overall physical well-being, and substantially improves a newborn's developmental progress.

Isn't that amazing?

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TIME Magazine had chosen the best inventions for 2006 and one of the more fascinating inventions is the Hug Shirt. This touchy innovation is invented by Cute Circuit.

Hug Shirt is a high-tech garment that simulates the experience of being embraced by a loved one. When a friend sends you a virtual hug, your cell phone notifies the shirt wirelessly, via Bluetooth. The shirt then re-creates that person's distinctive cuddle, replicating his or her warmth, pressure, duration and even heartbeat. And, yes, the Hug Shirt is fully washable. (TIme Magazine)

I guess is this one proof that there is indeed a scarcity of touching among human beings. A clear attempt to meet the physical and emotional needs of the human person. Isn't it funny how we content ourselves with what is created in our heads, well in fact we can have the real thing?

Think about it?

the anti-graft court spoke

The Sandiganbayan through its Special Division already rendered its judgment.

The dispositive portion of the 300+ page decision reads:

WHEREFORE, in view of all the foregoing, judgment is hereby rendered in Criminal Case No. 26558 finding the accused, Former President Joseph Ejercito Estrada, GUILTY beyond reasonable doubt of the crime of PLUNDER defined in and penalized by Republic Act No. 7080, as amended. On the other hand, for failure of the prosecution to prove and establish their guilt beyond reasonable doubt, the Court finds the accused Jose “Jinggoy” Estrada and Atty. Edward S. Serapio NOT GUILTY of the crime of plunder, and accordingly, the Court hereby orders their ACQUITTAL.

The penalty imposable for the crime of plunder under Republic Act No. 7080, as amended by Republic Act No. 7659, is Reclusion Perpetua to Death. There being no aggravating or mitigating circumstances, however, the lesser penalty shall be applied in accordance with Article 63 of the Revised Penal Code. Accordingly, accused Former President Joseph Ejercito Estrada is hereby sentenced to suffer the penalty of Reclusion Perpetua and the accessory penalties of civil interdiction during the period of sentence and perpetual absolute disqualification.

The period within which accused Former President Joseph Ejercito Estrada has been under detention shall be credited to him in full as long as he agrees voluntarily in writing to abide by the same disciplinary rules imposed upon convicted prisoners.

Moreover, in accordance with Section 2 of Republic Act No. 7080, as amended by Republic Act No. 7659, the Court hereby declares the forfeiture in favor of the government of the following:

(1) The total amount of Five Hundred Forty Two Million Seven Hundred Ninety One Thousand Pesos (P545,291,000.00), with interest and income earned, inclusive of the amount of Two Hundred Million Pesos (P200,000,000.00), deposited in the name and account of the Erap Muslim Youth Foundation.

(2) The amount of One Hundred Eighty Nine Million Pesos (P189,000,000.00), inclusive of interests and income earned, deposited in the Jose Velarde account.

(3) The real property consisting of a house and lot dubbed as “Boracay Mansion” located at #100 11th Street, New Manila, Quezon City.

The cash bonds posted by accused Jose “Jinggoy” Estrada and Atty. Edward S. Serapio are hereby ordered cancelled and released to the said accused or their duly authorized representatives upon presentation of the original receipt evidencing payment thereof and subject to the usual accounting and auditing procedures. Likewise, the hold-departure orders issued against the said accused are hereby recalled and declared functus oficio.

SO ORDERED.

The defense counsels for the Former President are still conferring as to the remedy they wish to avail. As far as my limited knowledge in Criminal Procedure (which by the way I took under the instruction of the Hon. Justice Peralta), within 15 days, Former President Estrada can either file an Motion for Reconsideration to the Sandiganbayan or file a Petition for Certiorari directly to the Supreme Court. Failure to avail of any of these options and after the lapse of the reglementary period, the decision will become final and executory.

More than anything, I agree with the Special Prosecutor when he said that this isn't only a victory for the prosecution but also of the Rule of Law. At least, this is a clear evidence that our judicial system is working.

More on this on my next post. I need to run.

brotherhood

For weeks now, the death of a UP fourth year Public Adminitration student has been filling our news.

Chris Mendez was allegedly killed in an initiation by a prominent fraternity in the university he is in. According to most of his friends, he aspires to become a lawyer which is probably why he was urged to join the fraternity in prepartion for entering UP Law School. His death has however dragged the name of the fraternity and caused the hiding of almost all its incumbernt officers and resident members. Although, the police are now out to pin down those who are responsible for his death.

Chris' death stirred opinions as to the violation of the Anti-Hazing Law. Aggressive as they are, UP students have started lobbying that justice be served. The parents whose children also died through these violent exercise of brotherhood now surfaces one after the other, perhaps to extend concern and support. More importantly to reiterate their cries for vindication for the loss of a loved one.

On a personal point of view, my heart goes to them for a death offered for a cause I too cannot understand. Brotherhood (or sisterhood, as the case may be) is supposed to be for encouragement, support and mutual respect, and never, never for violence. They might have their "fraternal" reasons. I just shrug my shoulders. I just really cannot comprehend.

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Senator Miriam Defensor-Santiago said that she will author a bill on the abolition of the Greek letter societies. To quote she said, “As far as I’m concerned, from my experience in UP Diliman for four years in the College of Law, these fraternities do not aid the academic tradition of the University. They are nothing but elitist enclaves...I really cannot be convinced of the necessity of joining fraternities and sororities. What is the benefit that is derived by these young, promising, idealistic students from the provinces who look at a UP education as their last ray of hope for success in life…”

I personally do not like the lady senator. I do not like everything about her--her points of view, her manner of speaking, her fashion sense and what have you. I infer that her statement may come from a personal, bitter experience of isolation or "post graduate bullying". The truth is no law school is without a fraternity or sorority. In fact, these societies has produced most of our prominent officials in the government. Members take pride in the association. But last night, while watching her on the news and letting out a smug, I have to partly agree on her observation, that in as far as one's stay in law school is concern there is a little that these societies offer. We are all equals. C'mon we study the same law.

Maybe I am speaking from the perspective of an outsider. Or perhaps as they say, the benefit comes after you are out of the school and is working you ass out there.

Or maybe, there isn't really a problem as to these societies. I think it's healthy to have "brods" and "sises", your so-called friends in law school. We too are social beings. We need people to cry with, whine and wine with, laugh with. Law school isolates such from the world outside, and sometimes they are all we have. However, maybe the prominence and privilege of brotherhood and the accumulation of "power" exercised over those who want to join their circle may have just gone overboard.

Sad but true.

verdict

Verdict - unanimous finding or decision of a jury on one or more matters (as counts of an indictment or complaint) submitted to it in trial that ordinarily in civil actions is for the plaintiff or for the defendant and in criminal actions is guilty or not guilty

Judgment - 1. a formal decision or determination on a matter or case by a court; 2. declaration by a court of the conviction of a criminal defendant and the punishment to be imposed.

Tomorrow, 12 September 2007, the Sandiganbayan will promulgate its judgment on the 4.3-Billion plunder case of former President Joseph Estrada. After six years of tedious and politically distabilizing trial, we will finally hear from the Court.

Former President Estrada's plunder case is composed of four charges -- acceptance of P545 million in protection money from illegal gambling (“jueteng”), misappropriation of P130 million in tobacco excise taxes, collection of a P189.7-million commission from the sale of the shares of Belle Corp. (a real estate firm), and amassing and depositing P3,233,104,173.17 in a bank account under the name Jose Velarde. He likewise falsely declared his assets which was imperative for public officials.

Although, he refused to enter a plea as to his guilt, he repeatedly underscored his innocence in the course of trial.

For the first time in the history of the Philippines, a former president was deposed, subjected to a full course trial, and now awaits to be sentenced. For what the law deems his guilt is, we have yet to find out. Whether he will be left to be unscathed by those collegiate justices or we'll wait until this thing drag itself to the Supreme Court, we will only be counting hours. My appeal is that the scale of justice, once and for all, be tipped to where justice will be equitably served. The position of these three justices are crucial. The Sandiganbayan's decision requires a unanimous vote of all three justices. I look highly on you and I appeal: Spell the difference.

Tomorrow, we will make history. Tomorrow, the Philippines will be changed. Whether it will spark massive upheaval or Filipinos will continue on turning a cold shoulder, we cannot change the fact that our government and society is faced with a new challenge to grow as a nation.

photos courtesy of www.philnews.com and www.abscbn.com

prophecy

This morning Mom and I had a peculiar conversation over breakfast.

"Gusto mo ba maging Justice?", she suddenly asked from out of nowhere.

"Oo." My answer was quick, plain and sure.

"Akala ko ba gusto mo magpratice ng immigration law?"

"Onga. Gagawin ko yung bago ako maging Justice. Syempre Ma, di ka naman agad-agad pwedeng maging Justice."

Then, I started explaining to her the requisites of becoming a Justice under the Constitution highlighting on years of practice and minimum age. Of course that was done in the most layman way possible. My mom is a simple citizen of this Country who like others would start nauseating the moment she hears technical terms such as res judicata, certiorari or habeas corpus.

If and when I become a lawyer, I would be the first in both my mom and dad's immediate family. Well, I've heard we have distant relatives who are lawyers and judges in the provinces. But of course, I do not know them. I think I have met them only once as to date. Other than my personal desire to fulfill my dream, our conversation reminded me that there are actually two clans watching and waiting for the time I take my turn to cross the Bar and become an agent of justice. Pressure? A bit. More of pleasure.ü

On one hand, I have always believed in the power of Parent's Prayers for their children. Mary did it for Jesus, Rebekkah did it for Jacob and Jacob for Joseph. They dreamt that their children be safe, be under God's guidance and care. And God did not fail them. He actually gave more than what one could expect.

I also believe in the blessing of parents to children. Isaac exhibited it to Jacob (although we know that how Jacob deceived his father to get the blessing that is actually for his older brother, Esau.) My point here is, parents' blessings are physical and outward manifestations of God's favor on their children and their endeavors.

My conversation with Mama this morning was a prophecy and a blessing, so I would like to believe. More so, it is simply an assurance that she too is praying that I become great and excel in what I do. Perhaps, she knows deep in her heart I have the skills to do it and God is faithful enough to meet me in case I fall short.

As I write this, my heart is warm, my chest is tightening. Especially knowing that once, she did not fully supported my pursuit for a degree in law. Hopefully, someday when what we have talked about becomes reality, she would still be here on earth savoring the joy of it with me.ü
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What is funny is that yesterday, I was piecing together in my thoughts my long term goals for my legal career. Then, this conversation. Is that coincidence? I don't think so. How will I get there? I am not exactly sure. But I will get there.

God will surely show the way.

sunscreen

I encountered this song a long, long time ago. At first I thought it was merely an article of some sort until I found the song. Some grains of truth. Pieces of advice do have to pick up to remind ourselves. Click on the link to listen to the song.

Everybody is Free (to wear sunscreen) Baz Luhrman

Ladies and Gentlemen of the class of '97... wear sunscreen. If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be IT.

The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience.

I will dispense this advice now.

Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth. Never mind. You will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded. But trust me, in 20 years you'll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can't grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked.

You are NOT as fat as you imagine.

Don't worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind; the kind that blindside you at 4pm on some idle Tuesday.

Do one thing every day that scares you.

Sing.

Don't be reckless with other people's hearts, don't put up with people who are reckless with yours.

Floss.

Don't waste your time on jealousy; sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behind. The race is long, and in the end, it's only with yourself.

Remember compliments you receive, forget the insults; if you succeed in doing this, tell me how.

Keep your old love letters, throw away your old bank statements.

Stretch.

Don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your life. The most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year olds I know still don't.

Get plenty of calcium.

Be kind to your knees, you'll miss them when they're gone.

Maybe you'll marry, maybe you won't, maybe you'll have children, maybe you won't, maybe you'll divorce at 40, maybe you'll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary. Whatever you do, don't congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself, either. Your choices are half chance, so are everybody else's. Enjoy your body, use it every way you can. Don't be afraid of it, or what other people think of it, it's the greatest instrument you'll ever own.

Dance. Even if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room.

Read the directions, even if you don't follow them.

Do NOT read beauty magazines, they will only make you feel ugly.

Get to know your parents, you never know when they'll be gone for good.

Be nice to your siblings; they are your best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.

Understand that friends come and go, but for the precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography in lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the people you knew when you were young.

ive in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard; live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.

Travel.

Accept certain inalienable truths, prices will rise, politicians will philander, you too will get old, and when you do you'll fantasize that when you were young prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders.

Respect your elders.

Don't expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund, maybe you'll have a wealthy spouse; but you never know when either one might run out.

Don't mess too much with your hair, or by the time you're 40, it will look 85.

Be careful whose advice you buy, but, be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia, dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it's worth.

But trust me on the sunscreen.

from William Shakespeare's Romeo and Juliet music from the House of Iona, Something For Everybody